Be Brave, put your best face forward // that’s what the first picture represents, a curated version of self. My best face forward the part of me that doesn’t reflect insecurity and imperfection.

Swipe to the right and notice me putting the same face forward and while I am happy and still that same light the feelings I have when I see my profile bring up insecurity and discomfort; but today I am done! I am not holding onto it anymore, I can’t. I love myself and I need to honor that I am not perfect, that I have been through trauma and I am lucky to no longer live with chronic pain.

Hello my loves! It has been months, actually almost a year since my last post here on this blog. When I began blogging I was a holistic health coach and chef living in NYC. Creating recipes and food styling was what I was living and breathing at the time. I had taken a course on recipe writing and even created multiple e-books and programs.

It took me longer then I imagined to share this post, not in the physical sense, when I was ready to write it all poured out, but emotionally, it was a long road.

For the last 11 years I had the same address and one I was so proud of for many reasons.

At 23 years old with the guidance of my parents I invested in my first home. It was the most perfect studio apartment in Gramercy Park looking over what was once the backyard of Pure Food and Wine. 

I couldn’t have predicted what was to come. I entered into this home with thoughts in my head of a relaxing vacation, a time to decompress, journal, rest and swim in the ocean and watch sunsets. While that was the case for me it became clear that the intention of the other guests in this house was to party. Listen, I have had my share of partying and fun but this was on a level that took me outside of my comfort zone.

Over the last month I have been cleansing my body of heavy metals. I removed the permanent retainers I got 8 years ago after having reconstructive jaw surgery from my mouth when I realized they were negatively impacting my health and causing inflammation to my face and jaw as well as throughout my body since the metal was in my mouth and then spread through my system.

I wanted to chat with you a bit about diet, addition, stress, sadness, depression, anxiety, loneliness, loss and whatever else you may feel on a daily basis.

The truth is you are not alone, on more levels than you can imagine. Trust if you have stumbled upon this blog post it is because there are angels guiding you.

If you ask and work for BIG through manifestation you can’t just stop when it arrives.